Family is the most fulfilling thing to me. A sweet kiss from my husband. A big hug from my baby boy. A word of encouragement from my parents. I could go on. They bring me SUCH joy!!
With that said, lately I've been examining my friendships beyond my family. The people on a daily basis that I fellowship with and build community with in this life. I think about how much I absolutely LOVE my family and how with friendships I desire to feel that full. That sense of belonging no matter what. When I do this, I find that some of my friendships I have now do not always feel this way. We moved to Reedsburg following God and waiting for Him to show us what he wants us to do. We desire meet a group of people that want to share God with one another and others with fun and a sense of adventure and urgency.
Lately I feel like I'm searching for this connection with other women here in Reedsburg. My mom always said that I'd find it when I had children. Well, I have a kid and I haven't found it. Now they say that its when my kids are in school. Okay. I'll be ready then. I'm not sure if its because I'm not from the area, and I haven't found others not from the area, but I feel left out of this infamous loop of women that have magically found an amazing connection. Is it me? Should I be doing or saying something else?
I know its just not God's time yet. There is a beautiful song out right now that helps me to refocus and wait for God's lead just like he did with meeting my husband, with giving us a beautiful little baby, with coming to Reedsburg. The song says,
"What if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?"
God's mercies are new every morning and I wait each day to find out how God will lead me that day. God had big things in store for me. That's why He gave me family to encourage me, love me and help me along my path. That is why I feel full right now and every day. Thank you Lord.
3 comments:
Brini
I wish you lived closer to Waunakee! I would LOVE to spend time with you and your sweet little boy (and Paul and I could SERIOUSLY use your youth and enthusiasm at our new church! We're praying for young families with children to join us in at Gateway...)
Thanks for being so honest on your blog... I enjoy reading it. And I will be praying for you! If you ever get down our way (or if you want to try and meet somewhere sometime this summer!) PLEASE let me know!
Laura Lundgren
I feel exactly the same way, like there's a giant sign that everyone else can see saying, "Find friends here!" I'm just not seeing it, and I feel like it's really hard to get into groups that are already established. Maybe your guys should move to Manitowoc!
Erin O-M :)
I know personally i am slacking on our water aerobics time and I know your probably looking for friends with children but hopefully i will improve as our summer ends and *crosses fingers* the summer slows down.
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