Getting Away

I'm sitting in a hotel room, by myself, watching the snow fall over the Mississippi River. I am away. Simeon has a job interview tomorrow for John Deere in Moline, IL. I, like a good future wife, am supporting my future husband by calming his nerves and encouraging him during this stressful time. I know he will do great tomorrow - most likely get a job.

However, tonight I want to write about getting away. I love hotels. I come and sit and all the possible seats to decide where the best one is. I look at all the hotel offers: three year old instant coffee, a laundry bag, a notepad, stinky-gross shampoo and conditioner, and a lot more. Why are these things so amazing and luxury to my eyes? Well, they are not mine. They are out of my zone and world far enough for me to feel away. Sometimes in the midst of crazy life and on-the-go moves, you need to escape.

I like to look upon the neighboring buildings and think about where my life is away from where I'm at. Student teaching, planning a wedding, working at a job, trying to stay healthy, driving, and more driving. It is a wonderful life. I'm more than in love with Simeon, I love being at home with my family, I'm almost done with something I've invested 5 years of my life to. I'm about ready to start a new life with the love of my life, and only God knows where. What could be better?

Sometimes we need a different perspective to realize that to get to the good stuff, we've got to face the rain. That's another reason why I'm getting away.

I do!

I DO want it to be June. I DO wish that I would be graduated and teaching. I DO wish that Simeon had a job that he absolutely loved. I DO wish that I lived closer to both my brother and sister. I DO wish Meredith lived here so I could see her again. I DO wish that it was warmer outside. I DO love snow days. I DO wish that I wasn't as pale as an egg white. I DO wish that working out wasn't so hard. I DO wish things like wedding cakes and honeymoons grew on trees so I wouldn't have to spend so much money. I DO wish that the political ads would leave everyone alone. I DO wish that people would go out to vote. I DO wish that I wouldn't get so nervous about things. I DO know that God has a plan for our lives. I DO believe that God made me the way I am. I DO know that God loves me. I DO love God. I DO love Simeon. I wish I could say the real I DO in June. But alas. It is about three and a half months away! What do YOU DO?

Bah Again

I'm sick...again. I hope it goes away for student teaching next week!!

How is everyone out there??

Bah

I'm sick.

Welcome Winter!

Welcome back to Wisconsin winter!!

Tis the season for giving

I would say I have a giving personality. I like to give to others, not to please myself, but truly help those around me. Lately though, some of the people I like to give to, take and take, and then criticize the gift. It is HARD! I try very diligently to continue to give with a smile and a positive attitude. How can I be more like the Lord? He has no qualms about giving everything to us when we criticize and do not deserve it. How can I have that same attitude? How much (not so positive) feedback can one person take? Perhaps I am to keep to myself and give gifts that don't have a repercussion or need to be done by the individual. There are many things I can learn...I just want to feel needed.

Well, I'm all over the place with this one... Merry Christmas and I really think it is the season for giving, no matter what!

Is it the Seasons?

I'm inside, curled up underneath a blanket, sipping hot chocolate and reading my email. Today it is supposed to snow 4-6 inches. The wind is blowing and I can hear it hit the house. I love winter. I love that you can see your breath and that when you were little you would try and try to make a ring with it. I love that you can have a snowball fight and run around for hours just trying to stay warm. I even love the stupid ice that is on the road making it hard to drive, it makes me leave early and actually get somewhere on time.

I also love the summer. Sipping iced tea on our porch swing listening to the cicadas sing back and forth to each other. I love the clouds that come rolling in and cool things off in the evening. I love hot days where you sweat walking to get the mail, it just feels right that it is summer. I love just reading a good book on a chair outside basking in the sun trying to bring my freckles to life.

Spring is beautiful. Flowers in bloom. The smell of freshly cut grass. The fact that evenings get later and later. The energy you have to spend the day running or just being outside. I love the feeling I get the first day after classes are over. Relief.

Autumn may be my favorite. The colors and the weather are astonishing. One minute it will be 60 degrees and the next will be 40. Vests are acceptable and used :) Love is blossoming with people at school meeting each other for the first time, or the first time in a long time. Football games and caramel apples. Mmmmm...

When I think about all of this and why I love the seasons so much it is unclear. Do I love the seasons themselves, or do I love the carefree moments during the seasons? As I am looking to graduate in may, I'm starting to picture the rest of my days...working and stressing over work. Is this really what a year is all about? Waiting for time off and hoping to enjoy some of these timeless moments from seasons past? I'm not that terrified, but listening to friends and family talk about how Friday cannot come soon enough scares me a little. Will I enjoy my job? Will I get a job?

Seasons are wonderful. 'Weather' or not I will see them as i do now, I can only hope.

Prime!

23 is a prime number. You know what that means? I'm in my primes! Oh if only I had a permanent drum set sound after all my jokes.

Seriously though, now that I'm twenty-three...It is going to be one of my prime years! Pun intended. Oh man, I'm such a math geek...

What woman in her primes DOESN'T look like this??

Blessings in Disguise

When I was a freshman in high school I entered the publications class at my high school. Pub, for short, was the group of students who put together the newspaper and yearbook. Brandon and Katy were in it, so I of course had to be in it. Rumors spread of how hard and mean Mrs. Jonas was. And...when I started I was sure I knew where those rumors had stemmed from.

As the year progressed I began to like Mrs. Jonas. What about this rough and tough woman was appealing no appalling? It hit me years later - She is a GOOD teacher. Not just a good teacher, but she was REALLY GOOD. When it came time to decided whether we went to the newspaper or the yearbook, I wanted desperately to be on the newspaper staff! Please oh please let me work with Brandon and the other smarties on the newspaper! As fate would have it, and Mrs. Jonas would have it, I was put on the yearbook staff!!

What a blessing in disguise. Mrs. Jonas knew me and what area I would best excel in. As a junior I was editor-in-chief, and as well as my senior year. I worked well with the people on my staff and had a lot of fun. Did I know it was going to be the right fit? Nah, but Mrs. Jonas did!

What made me think of it all these years later? I ran into Mrs. Jonas today. She asked me how Katy and Brandon were, asked what was new with my life. She was genuinely happy for me. It made me smile from ear to ear! That is what a good teacher is. That is what I want to be...

Excited!!

I got some decorations for my wedding this last weekend! I'm wicked excited. Yes, Meredith, you will have to hear about them!! You'll love it! Well, I hope you will!

In related news...I solved the Rubik's Cube. SEVERAL times might I add! Stupid cube... it has taken over my thoughts and time for the last two months!!! I'm writing this paper on the mathematics behind the cube and it isn't terribly difficult, but it is about 13 pages and counting of Rubik's Cube information. Yikes! Well with me luck because it is due on Tuesday and I've worked all semester on it!

I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving, that's all I can say!

Help!

Help! I need somebody. Help! Not just anybody. Help! You know I need someone....Help!

School is stressful! Its just not cool right now :)

Anyone agree??

Absurd!

Sometimes I feel like school is absurd. I work hard at the work I do to get grade that reflect my dedication. Does it happen? No. So why do i do it? Well, i tend to blame others for the misfortune that i am dealing with - math. Those engineers have hundreds of other engineering students to run ideas off of - can't be that hard! The art students...all they do is draw all day! History majors - sheesh! Why, they don't even study and they ace exams!

I chose math. I LIKE(d) math. This is my choice and i will have to live with the consequences. Am I absurd? Yes. Am I okay with that? Ask me in two weeks :)

Goodbye

I will miss you.

Fifty Nifty...

Yes, there are fifty nifty united states, but now there are fifty nifty candles on the cake for one special lady!! Dad, Simeon and I helped celebrate!

Constant Camera

I was thinking today about how in my middle level education classes we talk about how middle schoolers always feel like they have a constant camera on them. Wouldn't it be awesome if they made you're life into a movie? I mean, you could be in movie all the time! Have you ever thought about having your life be a movie? I have.

My life isn't all that interesting, but i wonder what it would look like in movie form. When I'm walking to class i would have a jack johnson song playing, and when i'm with Simeon, there would be a al green song playing.

Or what would a movie that filmed feet all day long be like? Do you think it would be interesting?

Random thoughts for no one...

Young Grasshoppa

I'm in my last year of college and there is so much to learn. In looking towards my future I see many things i don't feel prepared for. In nearly nine months i will be a wife. I don't know how to be a wife - i mean i have ideas from my mom and aunts, but nothing like the real deal! Will i be able to attend to Simeon's needs? Will i be able to keep a house? Will i be able to give up parts of my single lifestyle?

I'm going to be a math teacher. yeah, that was the goal years ago when i started school, but now its a reality. Will students understand me? Will i understand students? Will i be able to reach the unreachable? or the reachable? Will i be a good co-worker? Will i know my stuff?

Those are the thoughts on my mind as of late...they'll get answered eventually. Until then, i'll sit and wonder how God will work it all out.

Hard at work

I'm at work right now. As you can read...its a busy day here at badger brothers cafe!

Good Moods

I was in a good mood yesterday! You know those days when you're funny and happy and want to share it with everyone? Well, yesterday was one of those days. Even though i feel like this:



I'm still having a good day!! Perhaps its because i talked to my good friend Meredith...she's a cool kinda lady! Not to mention i'm getting married in less than 10 months, how cool is that??

Its True!

I'm engaged!

I get to spend the rest of my life with the man i love! How awesome is that??

I'm the happiest lady in the world!

pennies for thoughts and ponds

Perhaps i'm wasteful.

I love to know what people are thinking. To uncover the real happenings beneath the lives of those close to me. What was she thinking?! Will he ever grow up?! If anyone decided to disect me from head to toe to uncover what i was feeling about things, i'd be mad! Unfortunatly i try to do it with those close to me. If i did give my pennies to others for their thoughts, i'd be poor. And its about time for me to be rich in someone who knows my thoughts and everyone elses, but loves everyone the same.

Also, i'm finding myself wishing time away. Throwing my pennies in the pond to get somewhere fast. Where do i need to get though? Life is wonderful and i don't want to wish any day away even if it means that i won't necessarily be with Simeon or any others that i love. i need to start saving my pennies and counting on life being amazing with no wishes necessary. Time will come and go sooner than later and i want to enjoy my moments.

There you go, no pennies for my thoughts, its free today...